My overall view of the craft of acting.

Jan 122017

My twitter stalker had stopped but then she started up again after I was harassed by a GUN lover on Instagram for being too old to act. I suspect my Instagram attackers may know my stalker. I know this is the same stalker because I got notifications for all the other comments, but the person with the EGG as their photo. In addition twitter did not take the account down and instead left up a comment that slander to my person. I want to sue TWITTER FOR THis and make them reveal who has been doing this to me as I suspect they KNOW.

There are more twitter attacks including ones from the fall I have not posted. It is time consuming and the attacks kine of mentally wore me out and almost made me stop functioning. I am so infuriated with this because I am trained to act, write, and make films but feel so violated by all of this and cut off and I have no idea who to trust not knowing who this lunatic is.

 Posted by at 6:06 am
Jan 122017

I am tired of not being able to get a lawyer for being abused and lied about and slandered. I am sick. I will probably die because of what these people did. I did not hurt anyone. I did not take anything or steal. And the people in the below emails, Michael Lovern Green, Lee Ryder are both TRUMP SUPPORTERS. Arne Star may be as well. He got work on set from Dempsey and apparently ERIC DANE either told him I was weird or that was his opinion of me on the set of Gray’s Anatomy. I would like him to define WEIRD, considering he was supposed to be pro gay, but I am actually straight. I am an introvert and shy. that is not a reason to be abused or made fun of.

Lee Ryder was included in the conversation by Michael Lovern Green. I got into a twitter fight with both of them after and blocked them. Ryder practically admits in the twitter attacks to knowing one WILL WALLACE and apparently got his SAG card by being picture picked by MAMET. Ryder is a gun lover and Republican. And he had a hatred for me that I did not understand but if he did know Wallace that would explain it. I took WALLACE off of my resume and would not talk about him. he was dead to me.

I was also NOT escorted off set and this is the first time I am hearing I terrified a woman. Arne in emails before which I posted never mentioned this and I talked to him about one COURTNEY LOVELL who I have emails from post us having an argument on a set. If I terrified her, why respond to me. I plan to post those emails.

Please note I tried to file charges against ERIC DANE for remarks I did hear about me on set from him and I have been trying to find a lawyer to SUE ABC and DISNEY and Shondraland for his BEHAVIOR and the fact that I was treated as though I commit a crime or was violent when I NEVER WAS violent with anyone. these conservative republicans LIED.

 Posted by at 6:00 am
Sep 092016

For those of you who do not know I have been viciously attacked on twitter over and over. No one with the government will help me. My site is being screwed with so no one sees the proof about my accident or the lies. I now get filled with rage. I bite on books and break pens with my teeth. I cry and scream openly . I want the hell to end. I want the animals that I thought were human to all just go away. I want this person attacking me to get a disease and for their children and family to completely be wiped from the planet. I want someone to tell me who they are so I can shave their head and ram my knee between their legs so they feel the mental pain I feel when ever they remind me of JEREMY GILBREATHE and what he did to me. I want to beat the crap out of the men in suits stalking me and the yogis who want to remind me I can not be an actor because Blake Shields is a yogi and MALE but I am a woman and I really just want to date a yogi not be an actor.

I want to hurt my father for every time I hear a whisper of someone talking about me living off my father from some third party, probably LEE RYDER or Tony Blair or Michael Lovern. All of whom worked BACKGROUND with me. My mother I can still hear her voice telling me after I told her I was tripped on a set that now I have to give up what I love. Why? Because my mother was jealous I was off in the world doing what I wanted and not trapped with a husband and imprisoned in a kitchen as the HELP.

I never hurt anyone but I FEEL THE RAGE when i get a jury duty notice and think about all the lawyers out there who hate me because I refused to practice even though I am so mentally damaged now the thought of working with lawyers or around them makes me want to smash things.

I think about my high school and the bastard on line attacking me over and over and saying I am just a librarian and I want to make them wear glasses and pocket protectors and force them to wear braces. I want this person to know what it feels to be ashamed of being NOT COOL. I want the world to know who they are so they can be made fun of and trolled and bullied and know what it feels to cause me so much pain. I want them to be excluded from the VIP parties they claim to be going to and to be seen as the MONSTER they really are. What is disturbing to me is they could be an actor I even watch. they could be an actor I think is cool. but they are not. they are just another bully in wool and i want it to itch them so bad they are forced to rip their own skin off to reveal who they truly are.

In the end the truth is I will never do any of the above. I will probably just quietly end my own life one day because the humiliation of not being an equal with my union and knowing I have been labelled not good enough, either by HBO because I dated JORDAN MARKS or SAG AFTRA because I spoke out about the merger and was a liberal or DISNEY because I told COURTNEY LOVELL I liked BLAKE SHIELDS and was being BULLIED BY Marquesa Moreland. Or by the group of FRIENDS protecting JEREMEMY GILBREATHE who I will to my dying breath hate for molesting me and when I begged him to leave me alone told people I would be fired. Heaven forbid I be seen as cool. I am supposed to be a MONSTER. I would never be caste as the nice girl or the one who gets the guy. I was cast to be made to look pathetic so no one would think I would be with a cool guy.

 Posted by at 3:51 am
Apr 252016

OK I sent out a mail chimp a few weeks ago. After sending that out I also was emailing certain people because I am tired of not getting justice. Anyways I found myself recently in articles back in Maryland in the Baltimore Sun for plays I performed in or was involved in. I myself never had a bad review other than a bad accent in my first British play. Why I started studying dialects.

Anyways I get attacked again. Either the person who is attacking me is in the personal emails I sent or is getting my mail chimp. Also note that SAG dues are coming due soon and I find it interesting I am getting attacked now. ACTING is my life. ACTING is what I want to do. If I can not win an award doing it I really do not think I should teach it. Anyways not big on being around kids even though I keep being told I am sweet. How can I be a pedophile when I like men in their 30s. Not CHILDREN. My type is like Blake Shields. He is like my DAD but earthy. My ex in college was like Blake. Chris Patrick. I like earthy and I am tired of people stalking ME.

I DO NOT want to date men not into acting and my BOYFRIEND in college was an ACTOR. He was the only best friend I think I truly ever had.

I am sorry who ever you are you really are a sad person. you claim to have an agent and a manager and be successful, yet you feel the need to grace my twitter account with your presence. You must really love Blake Shields if you want me to kill myself so he can have a future knowing the girl he asked out in 2005 who had cancer died HATING HIM because she was not allowed the freedom to move on and still be an actress and still do what she loves. You must really love yourself that you feel the need to degrade another human being to make yourself feel so special. I will always have feelings for BLAKE I told him that. He knows that and therefore he knows I am not stalking him. i have no need to. I said my peace. I am not moving and I am not going to stop being an actor and being me. I was sexually molested by a guy Blake and I both knew and BLAKE KNOWS I WAS MOLESTED BY THIS MAN. I do not need his pathetic friends bringing up rape on PERISCOPE on line when I am watching him eat a burrito because after all even though he went to YALE he is of the immature mindset only HOT WOMEN GET RAPED. And that men are all shallow and that attractive men would not find me attractive because I can be SWEET AND NICE.

I may be an asshole to my parents because they are republican and are delusional stuck in the 1950s and not seeing the world I live in and not accepting me for me. I may be an ass-whole TO JEREMY GILBREATHE because i will not let him get away with slandering me when he is the guilty party. I may be an ass-whole for calling for help when a woman fell in a hole on WAR OF THE WORLDS and stopping shooting long enough to get her out and to safety. OR when an old man fell in front of me on ANGELS AND DEMONS and in front of EUWEN MCGREGOR I shouted for the first AD to tell the background not to jump over people because people were being hurt. I may have been an ass-whole when I was being tickled uncontrollably on a set by a guy and the crew saw and decided not to bring him back. I may have been an ass-hole when I helped people work STAR TREK or told them to go to an agent looking for people. I may be an ass-whole for giving people rides when I had a car. BUT I WOULD SAY NO. I AM NOT.

 Posted by at 3:22 am
Mar 222016

I was involved in 2003 with a stand in on Carnival, but not Jeremy Gilbreathe. I was involved with John Ponzio, though not serious. I found out he was dating another stand in on the set and got very angry. Despite that we continued to be professional friends. Our hugs and conversations were just that, […]

 Posted by at 1:10 am